September 17, 15
When I read something that affects me I can remember more. As I read through this reading I actually felt like someone was talking to me. Where do I start? First off the idea of the systemic power of leadership completely got me off guard. I started reading and thinking this dude is about to get into the science of leadership and that would have really turned me off. But he did get into more than just psychoanalysis of leadership than I thought and real issues emerged. I had to accept some of the things that Edwin Frieman talked about. I have already been where he went when he made it plain by that we have to examine ourselves before we try to examine others. Leadership is not so much mental as it is about what we actually do. That’s how I understood it. And to me that is so true we can collect data and amass so much stuff that really has nothing to do with a real outcome. And in America that is commonplace. Its seems like people who are gifted to lead are always measured only by stats. When something more dynamic is going on no matter what the measurement is. In my family that is a family of eight I always had to deal with three big bigger brothers and one mean sister who could beat us all up. But I confronter her when I was young one time because I could care less that she was the oldest. I ate a little grass but goats do that every day. I never would have guessed that I was facing my leadership qualities. Frieman says, “It was at that point that I began to realize that before any technique or data could be effective, leaders have to be willing to face their own selves.” And sometimes that means confronting a leader who is more powerful than you and you know what is going to happen. Facing your own self requires more than words or more than prayer. You have to face it to make a change. I was down with that when I was young. As I have grown older that same attitude I have is prevalent. Its not about just the idea of change its about being in something i.e. an organization or a place of leadership and you just fit in just to fit in because you don’t want start anything. I know that God also holds us responsible as he did the prophets for not speaking out about things we clearly see is wrong and you just go with it. The failure of nerve is a little different to me then how he addressed it. To me he addressed it like it’s a good thing so that you can allow other elements to take place and other ideas can make something out nothing. Failure of nerve to me is not doing what you have to do no matter what you have to face. I wish life was that simple but it is not. You can’t fail in your nerve if you are responsible for things and most importantly souls!
 Edwin H. Frieman, A Failure of Nerve: Leadership in the Age of the Quick Fix (New York, NY.: Church Publishing Inc., 2007), 24.